My a(symmetrical) world

I struggle with certain expectations of symmetry or balance within my life. Somewhere along the way I picked up a neurotic sentiment that everything needs to be balanced and that somehow I could control the balance if I only did more of this or was less like that. These days, everything I experience feels like a lesson in accepting the asymmetrical nature of things, and I am starting to see that my expectation of some ultimate symmetry doesn't correspond with the ways things actually are, which creates a feeling of disharmony. So I'm thinking that there may be some kind of peace to be found in accepting the asymmetrical ways of life. When I think about Acupuncture or other forms of alternative medicine, the goal is to bring the patient's system back into balance, but this "balance" is never uniform. With each person it takes different combinations and proportions of various elements. In this sense, it is also an asymmetrical process to find a kind of symmetry in the patients state of health.